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Broken Up About It

If you're like me, you get attached to people really fast. You get used to waking up and having that good morning text. Used to having that special person to talk to all day and manage to put that smile on your face. That person to have those late-night conversations with and get those cute goodnight texts. That person you would lose sleep over just to hear their voice a little longer.

I'm not gonna lie, I like having someone in my life. I mean who doesn't? Doesn't everyone like having someone they can talk to about everything, that person that they know can always manage to put a smile on their face, that person that they'd lose sleep over.

I was talking to someone who always managed to put a smile on my face, that I would lose sleep over just to have a longer conversation, someone that I cared a lot about. We were talking for about 5 or 6 months… and after that log you sort of get used to things. You get used to walking up to a good morning text, you get used to having someone to vent to at work or tell your stupid mistakes to, or someone to just laugh and smile with throughout the day, someone to talk to before you go to bed and make you feel good and leave you with a smile before you fall asleep.

And it really sucks when that gets taken away from you…

What used to be your normal is no longer your normal… you pick up your phone thinking they texted you, and nothing is there… and no clear reason as to why…

I always tell myself not to get too attached because “people always leave”, but I always still manage to get attached in some way. And I will say… this one kinda hurt a lot.

I've never been one to talk to many people, but the ones I do talk to I talk to a lot and I am close to.

This new song came out yesterday, it's called “Broken Up” by Mitchell Tenpenny. There's a part that says

But, baby, I'm still broken up about it

Yeah, time will change but I'll still feel the same

Might take a week, a month, a year

But I'll still feel, I'll still feel the same

Yeah, baby, I'm still broken up about it

Yeah, baby, I'm still broken up about it

Yeah, I've had it up to here, had enough about it

Maybe I will open up about it

Yeah, but only if I drink until I'm drunk about it

Lord knows, I wish that I could say that I'll be fine

But, baby, I'm still broken up about it

Baby, I'm still broken up about it

And I sorta feel this song fits perfectly with how yesterday played out.

And I think the part that hurts the most is not truly knowing why, and losing someone I really cared about and no longer have to talk to. Not having them to talk to anymore is what really hurts the most.

I'm not sure where I was going with this post, but I guess I am “broken up” about a lot. A lot of mixed feelings about a lot of different things, and no answers as to when things will be ok again. I'm not just talking about this person, but with just life.

Life is full of a lot of unanswered questions and a lot of hurt and heartbreak, but life is also full of good times full of friends, laughter, and love. Sometimes it's hard to let the hurt and heartbreak go, but you can't hold onto it forever either.

Learning how to pick yourself up and find the good to focus on in life is hard, but it's something I'm learning to do… and I hope you do too.

Broken Up By: Mitchell Tenpenny

Songs that stuck out to me this week:

(Run To The Father By: Cody Carnes)

(Still In Control By: Mack Brock)

(Graves Into Garden (ft. Brandon Lake) By: Elevation Worship)

(My Testimony By: Elevation Worship)

If you have any prayer requests, need more advice on this topic, or just need someone to talk to feel free to contact.

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